新的一年

今年我二十一岁了,可我还是一个人,真的好孤单,很想可以有一个人可以在我身边,和我分担喜怒哀乐.我并不贪心,这么小小的要求就是我今年的愿望,希望可以实现咯,哈哈

Bad Day

It was a lovely beautiful monday at first, however is was a terrible day at night~this monday is my IT presentation day, and ppl praised me once saw me, i feel good about that, as i am really enjoy that feeling.I am not a person that someone will impress once saw me since i was borned, i used to be omitted among the people...even relative also the same, they usually will ask my elder sister or my younger brother, they do forget the one in the middle, even the guy i like, i always hav to spend effort to impress him like i always do, but just one day i can gain people attention YOU also want to punish me? Is it i don't deserve it or i do not have the right to behave like this way...During my last presentation day, i do feel happy but i end up with my leg get injuries and suffer from months and now the one can enhance my confident and is lost right now, i do care because of the money, but i care more what do i left without that confident, i felt really bad after realise i had losted my whole cosmetic bag outside the damn UTAR computer lab, even my mum also scolding me cause it was my fault put my own belonging under unsecure place, of course i know but i just didn't expect ppl will steal it as i assume student in utar should be well educated, but i guess i am wrong...they are just bitches who like to stole people things, though i realise is my fault, but can't you understand me that i am upset enough and since u still scolding me, i cried for two nights and i really not in the mood to prepare my midterm on sat, but i hav no choice, do I? Now, i really HATE utar for not enhance it's security, and i wasn't the first case losing belonging at outside comp lab,there is a case bout half yrs ago, a person whole bag is gone totally worth RM500++, i am just wondering what's the hell is going on with UTAR security guard...What are they actually doing as we pay all the so called facilities fees each yr? I just noticed they loved to lock people vehicle, sleeping and nothing! I din feel secure at all !!!

auditng midterm is coming

yea...coming fri night is midterm day again~i know i have to study, but could anyone pls stop me from cont watching movie, if not my audit paper might look red, haizzz~is in some kind of "prob" again, man yee, if u saw this u know wat i refer to...haha

no one

i hate this feeling, when lonely and want to share something with someone, there is always no one i can come to, why...am i deserve it, sometimes really feel tired of study life, i lov to stay home but i refuse to study when i am in my home, coz is too comfortable n lots of thing i can do, like my palace...but here~kampar, nothing else for me but study...

yr 2 sem 1

Time pass so fast, i am in utar degree life yr 2 sem 1 ady, though every new semester i am telling myself it is a new start, but the reality is something that is still the same and not going to change , that is i am still alone n no one can really accompany me whenever i need, wat to do, finding a real fren or accompany is such a hard task, i just hope that i can use to it.

Recently

I have been long time din update my blog..but now is the time for me to let all ppl know wat am I currently doing. Week 10 finish all the midterm n week 11 finish the only presentation and that’s the end on putting effort on my coursework mark and this also mean that I hav to work hard for final le, but dunno y I am still can’t focus at that time, but now is better since is limited time ady. Apart from education, I am trying to try out with one guy after my last relationship end at may last yr, but it doesn’t work so I am still single now. Start from now, I know how’s good the person is doesn’t matter, the important thing is whether got feel or not n does he suit for u? cause now, we r looking for future love partner who might be the husband for me, so really must becareful and serious. Besides, at 5 april 2010, I have decided to take one ppl out of my world, 5 yrs more he have been in a deep position in my heart, even want to forgot, is really hard to me, and it doesn’t success…but when heart dies, it would disappear immediately. I admit I have lost the chance between us and it never comes bak, and I also understand..but one things is important, that is I am always give u the heart and always open for u but still u never open ur heart to me, I does not know why, but it tells me I am not the person for u and same goes to u, so I know my hope in you is really come to the end, from that day onward, is a new start for me! I am also thx u for making me happy for those time u r around me…now just feel like being myself alone those sometime is lonely but is feel free now~

mistake

if we purposely done something wrong just for the sake of our happiness..is it a fault??? maybe every ppl have different view into this ques..but i guess if just the purpose did the mistake suffer from the consequences without affect the another party would be okay, coz it doesn't hurt ppl~